I was on the fence all week about doing the CrossFit Open. It did not help that I have just felt exhausted and burnt out this whole month. I think that has more to do with finishing my dissertation and my doctorate than working out, but it added to the not-sure-if-I-should-do-this feeling. On Monday I was feeling pretty gung-ho about it, but after the work out my body felt so cranky that I felt silly to even consider doing the open as a second-to-third trimester pregnant lady.
But I was feeling bummed to have to miss out. And after talking about it with my coach, she said she thought as much. I know whatever I do is not going to be pretty or even outstanding, but as I told my coach today it still would be more than I was capable of doing last year. Seriously. I do not think I could back-squat over 45 pounds last year and now I have a one-rep max of 135. And I did that while pregnant.
So, what are my goals for my first open? I’m not exactly sure how to establish them considering that until tonight I will have no idea what the work out for tomorrow is, but I do have a few:
Establish some sort of base. Yeah, maybe that base would be better if I was not pregnant, but I still want something with which to compare next year. But it is not all about the future. I’m still fairly new to CrossFit, but I know I have made significant improvements and have done things I never expected to be able to do.
Do more than I think I can. Dangerous words from a pregnant woman, but I do want to have one “woah, I did not think I could do that” moment. Truth be told, I have those all the time. The day I was first allowed to use a bar in my over-head squat instead of a PVC pipe will always be a happy memory, but I want an Open moment too.
Community support. I do not know where Bruno and I will be next year. But I love the CrossFit we are currently at – I want to be able to share this. I want to be able to cheer people on. One thing I love about CrossFit is that I am so inspired to go work out and see people really pushing themselves hard. I love it when I see people suffer and push through it anyways. There are some amazing people there. I want to see them accomplish things they did not realize they could do.
Hopefully in the next few weeks I’ll be able to give you tales from my first open, but I am truly excited that I finally signed up – and excited to do the whole thing as a partner WOD as well.*
*Me and the baby…if you couldn’t get the joke!